Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Couldn't Ask for a Better Father for my Son!
Benj is such a good husband! He truly does awesome with Asher, and makes me fall in love with him every single day. He gets up in the middle of the night to change diapers, or bottle feed him ( we are forced to bottle feed because Im just not making enough milk to keep his little tummy full) just so I can get an extra hour of sleep. I think sometimes he doesnt realize that I catch him talking to him in English and Chinese, or kissing him, or snuggling him. But I love those moments where I catch him loving up on him. We even sometimes fight over who gets to hold him. He is so great and watching him be such a good father makes me fall in love with him more and more everyday! I sure do love my boys!!
Monday, February 20, 2012
Two weeks old today.
We sure love our baby boy, he is such a good baby! We dont have problems with him crying much and right now he just likes to stare and coo at you! It's adorable!
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Happy Valentines to my sweet sweet boys!
I truly used to hate this day, I thought it was stupid. But when I married Benj... it still didnt change haha. This year though changed my thought process a little bit. Since I can remember I have had anxiety. I started getting it in middle school when going to school was just a little bit too miserable for me. I had no friends I was made fun of more than not. I finally got it under control in high school. So Benj has never seen that side of me before... until I got pregnant. I would worry about the smallest things. I still had it pretty under control, but when I had baby Asher my anxiety has sky rocketed to unbelievable heights. I do really well during the day to keep it under control but at nights I cant help but crying, I cry pretty much most of the night! Benj in this process has been unbelievable understanding and supportive of my new behavior, though I dont think its been easy on him. He has done some amazing things at night like taking the first shift at night so I can sleep. My anxiety has effected a lot on our relationship, just adjusting to all of the new things in life. But he never fails to show me everyday how much he truly loves me and our son. I now have a new perspective on life and especially this holiday, Valentines Day isnt about buying special gifts for each other or spending money on pointless things. Its about truly realizing how many people care for you. Love is in the air people and im not talking just about couples. Im loving my new little life and my sweet sweet boys and couldnt be more grateful for the two handsome men in my life!
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Asher Zhao Yang Bryce- His birth story
Well we finally made it to the end the pregnancy and had our beautiful baby boy. He is seriously the best thing that has happened to us. We really never thought we could love someone as much as we love and care about him. As I sit here laying in bed watching my whole world cuddle and sleep, I start to realize how perfect my life really is. And this is not just the hormones talking i promise, though there has been lots of crying in this house hold not just from mom though :). Anyways I wanted to write down Ashers birth story before i forgot everything.
We went in Sunday February 5th at 8 pm at night to the hospital, I was scheduled to be induced the next day and our doctor said he wanted to see us one more time before we had him. At least that was our impression of what he wanted us to do. He was scheduled to work at the hospital Sunday night so he told us to meet him up there. We seriously thought we were just going up there for paper work and to check and see if Asher was still doing okay. Well our impression was wrong when we got there Sunday night one of the nurses gave me a gown said put this on. I was just thinking in the back of my head okay he is checking my cervix one more time. But then our nurse came in for the night and introduced herself. We then had the doctor tell us we were staying the night to what they call "Ripening the Cervix" Which is a nice way of telling you that they are going to dilate you that night. Well we took it and stayed because we figured it was an okay thing to do. So they gave me this pill that was suppose to start contraction, and dilate me to a four by the morning so we could break my water and get everything rolling. Well in the morning to the doctors surprise I hadn't dilated at all. So they gave me more medication and said if I hadnt made any progress by noon they were going to send me home. By eleven that morning my contractions I thought at the time had reached an all time high, little did I know this was actually an all time low for contractions. but when they came back and checked me I was dilated to a one, this still meant that i was going home because they cant do anything until you at least reach a two. but the doctor decided to keep me till two because at that point I was still having contractions and the medication had worn off by then meaning my body was doing it all by itself. So yet again they said if i hadn't reached a two by two then they would send me home. Well two came around and I still hadnt dilated to a two, but the doctor didnt want to come in yet so he had us stay till five, well the nurse suggested that we get up and walk around because it might speed up the process. We did but this was very painful and hard for me to do because I was so weak from the contractions plus the not eating anything for almost twenty four hours. So our laps consisted of making a round sitting down for like five minutes and then returning to do another lap. When they then checked me at five i was barely dilated to a two. So the doctor had told me it was time to go home. We started to get unhooked to all of the monitors and then a contraction came on, this time it made this huge popping noise and gushing noise. I gasped for breath looked at my nurse and said my water just broke. So they hooked me back up to all of the monitors. My contractions at this point were unbearable. so unbearable I was begging the nurse for the epidural.. You cant usually get an epidural until your at least dilated to a four but I had been contracting this bad for over two hours and i hadnt changed from a two to a three yet. So the nurse went and got me one anyways. They are life savers let me tell you. I was in heaven after that! Anyways after only being dilated to a two for over half of the day they started pitocin the pitocin didnt do anything to help the processes speed along, instead it made Asher's heart rate drop rapidly and he was too stressed out. The doctor then came in and said they didnt think he was going to make it if we delivered vaginally so our next best option was a C section. So they got me ready and I was in there in ten to fifteen minutes ready for everything to happen. He was born February 6th at 10:08 pm, weighed 7 lbs 4 oz and 20 1/2 inches long. When he came out he was beautiful I was crying, and once I heard him cry it was the best thing that ever happened.
Anyways here are some beautiful pictures of my baby boy
We went in Sunday February 5th at 8 pm at night to the hospital, I was scheduled to be induced the next day and our doctor said he wanted to see us one more time before we had him. At least that was our impression of what he wanted us to do. He was scheduled to work at the hospital Sunday night so he told us to meet him up there. We seriously thought we were just going up there for paper work and to check and see if Asher was still doing okay. Well our impression was wrong when we got there Sunday night one of the nurses gave me a gown said put this on. I was just thinking in the back of my head okay he is checking my cervix one more time. But then our nurse came in for the night and introduced herself. We then had the doctor tell us we were staying the night to what they call "Ripening the Cervix" Which is a nice way of telling you that they are going to dilate you that night. Well we took it and stayed because we figured it was an okay thing to do. So they gave me this pill that was suppose to start contraction, and dilate me to a four by the morning so we could break my water and get everything rolling. Well in the morning to the doctors surprise I hadn't dilated at all. So they gave me more medication and said if I hadnt made any progress by noon they were going to send me home. By eleven that morning my contractions I thought at the time had reached an all time high, little did I know this was actually an all time low for contractions. but when they came back and checked me I was dilated to a one, this still meant that i was going home because they cant do anything until you at least reach a two. but the doctor decided to keep me till two because at that point I was still having contractions and the medication had worn off by then meaning my body was doing it all by itself. So yet again they said if i hadn't reached a two by two then they would send me home. Well two came around and I still hadnt dilated to a two, but the doctor didnt want to come in yet so he had us stay till five, well the nurse suggested that we get up and walk around because it might speed up the process. We did but this was very painful and hard for me to do because I was so weak from the contractions plus the not eating anything for almost twenty four hours. So our laps consisted of making a round sitting down for like five minutes and then returning to do another lap. When they then checked me at five i was barely dilated to a two. So the doctor had told me it was time to go home. We started to get unhooked to all of the monitors and then a contraction came on, this time it made this huge popping noise and gushing noise. I gasped for breath looked at my nurse and said my water just broke. So they hooked me back up to all of the monitors. My contractions at this point were unbearable. so unbearable I was begging the nurse for the epidural.. You cant usually get an epidural until your at least dilated to a four but I had been contracting this bad for over two hours and i hadnt changed from a two to a three yet. So the nurse went and got me one anyways. They are life savers let me tell you. I was in heaven after that! Anyways after only being dilated to a two for over half of the day they started pitocin the pitocin didnt do anything to help the processes speed along, instead it made Asher's heart rate drop rapidly and he was too stressed out. The doctor then came in and said they didnt think he was going to make it if we delivered vaginally so our next best option was a C section. So they got me ready and I was in there in ten to fifteen minutes ready for everything to happen. He was born February 6th at 10:08 pm, weighed 7 lbs 4 oz and 20 1/2 inches long. When he came out he was beautiful I was crying, and once I heard him cry it was the best thing that ever happened.
Anyways here are some beautiful pictures of my baby boy
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